A couple of tunes worth humming

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5nW3-DajGiY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIz-MmKeoCs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xat1GVnl8-k


Truth of the day.......




Survining Rape is harder for a man than a woman.......why would I say such a harsh and I am sure hated thing.......Well no one believes you when you are a man that is raped.  Everyone thinks you are damaged afterwards.......

Why well I will tell you what I think.

I think it is because men are suppossed to be strong.   And rape is looked at as a man being weak.

Well I was only 10 the first time I was raped.

My dad and step-mom let me step-brother get away with it time and time again because they did not believe me.  The doctors did not believe me.

Now as an adult I have to deal with the pain alone because the shame they feel is tooooo great to accept me.

I love life.  I am so glad to be alive.

I have 3 great things in my life.

There names are:

Mia

Oliver

and Alyssa


I will try everyday to make them proud......Even though I must now do it alone.

I miss being conisdered normal.  I am not normal, but no one is.


It was not my fault that my stepbrother raped me.

It was your fault Dad for choosing work and career over family.

It was your fault for not listening to my cries for help.

Mom is was your fault for hating me because I looked like my Dad that you broke up with. 

Mom you cheated on my Dad with his best friend.  Danny you are dick for doing that to your mate.  What a fucking dick you are. 



I wish people in my life (well they used to be in my life) would judge themselves half as much as they judge me.

Try for a moment to imagine.........

You are ten........


It is dark.   The gag in your mouth is a dirty sock semen stained from constant use for clean up after masturbation.

You are tied to your own bed face down with a pillow case over your head.

Your nose is bleeding from a stategic punch.

You feel your pajamas being pulled down.

You feel that pain of entry.


You cry and want to die.


Now imagine telling your dad and the therapist you need help and your step brother is evil.

Imagine living in a place called LaVernia, Texas that is so remote you try to run away, but find nothing to run to.

Imagine begging your dad to go to your mom and being told no.

Imagine this scene happening so many times you can still feel the sting of pain and shame.

Imagine.........