I know it may be funny to you, but.....

I find music soothing in rough seas.  I never imagined that you would hate me so much.

I will never hate you.

I was with you for so many years.  We have beautiful children together.  Children you won't let me see.

You want me locked away for no reason and have nothing but negative things to say about me.

Was it all some good joke to you?  Fall in love, have kids, and then kick me out?  I know your family has money and no you have the support of my closest relatives as well. 

You are right about one thing.  I am an asshole.  I am hard to get along with, but I also loved you like no one ever will.  I love me kids and I will always want to be a part of their lives.

I will not give up hope that you will treat me as an equal and stop yelling at me and telling what you are going to do to me.  Some might even call that extortion. 

I am going home soon, I will not and have never harmed you or the kids, so please quit the pretense that you are in danger it is beneath you to be so petty.

I know you hate me, hold onto that hate if you must.

I don't hate you.  You are a great mother and you were a loving spouse until I would not roll over and do whatever I was told.  You forgot after the affair that I was person and not just a object to be ordered around.  Remember this about us, you forgave me and took me back, then I had to do everything I was told all the time.  I accepted this as I had done wrong, but enough was enough.

I did what you wanted.  I dealt with my childhood trauma.  I am not better and what thanks do I get?  My wife tells me to leave on Christmas Day.  She then tells my children that Daddy's 'head is broke'?  How mean can you be and expect me to keep taking it without disputing the facts.

I will not concede anything else to you until you start to be fair to me and our children.

They miss me and I miss them.  I accept that I can not control you at all.  Stop trying to control me through threats and lies.  I did not threaten you or your brother.

I have consulting a lawyer and she has assured me your claims are baseless and any action taken would hurt your custody case in the long run. 

I do not want to be mean.  I want to be friends one day.  Can you not see how that is best for our children?

All the best,

Love,

J