Musings

Well, another day.

I think that life is funny joke and you learn the meaning when you are finished.  At least that is my hope.  You know how some people life a quote unquote 'normal life'?  Well, I would not even know at this point how to get close to a normal life.  I just hope to try and be a good person and a good father.  I know that it is easy to look at my life and judge, but don't be so hasty.

I know this about people.  They like finding fault in others.  Be honest, remember the last time you and a girl friend or a boy friend were sitting in a restaurant and person came in that, was (insert issue here)?  What did you say in whispered undertones?  Was it positive?  Did the two of you have a chuckle at the strangers expense?  Ever had that moment when their eyes caught you two lauging and you could see either anger, confusion, or disappointment in their eyes? 

Did you feel shame?  You should.

Why as a species do we use so much of our time and brain power diminishing our fellow man?  What do you like to read?  Books.......I hope so, but did you know that the majority of people consider the internet as reading?  People magaizne?  The Sun?  Get real.  That shit will just slowly rot your mind and your soul.  Start to be involved in building others up and not ripping them down.

I know one thing for sure.  I can only control my own actions, morals, and mind. 

I have given up on trusting others to treat me with respect, and mutual love.   That  I feel you find with only a few and even those you choose to trust and love can turn an bite you in the end. 

So, with my guard up I march on. 

I will do the following before the end of the year.

1)  I will continue to be a columnist.
2)  I will strive to put others before myself whenever possible.
3)  I will be strong and stay alive in an angry and hostile world.
4)  I will change the things in my life I can and need to change and I will accept that I can not make anyone love or respect me.
5)  I will find more friends like I have in the past that I can trust and they in turn can trust me.
6)  I will find a way to ensure my children are always happy and safe.

All the best to you all.